It’s just some fellow who thinks you should do as he tells you.
Appendix C
Written on social media:
. . . a thought just crossed my mind as though it were new, that Allism is a development of alpha-ism, and Allists all behave as though they have the alpha mentality to a degree, they all understand alpha-ism, and maybe that suggests a genesis, where some bottleneck happened and only a single family (or relatively so) of alphas made it through?
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I don’t mean the whole species bottlenecked at once, I’m pretty sure that didn’t happen at the end of the ice age, but (as I pondered in the book, free and downloadable on profile), some localized little bottleneck, some population that got stranded somewhere by global warming. Then, when the peaceful sorts were pared away, something changed and this group of all alphas began to conquer the world.
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I’ve seen things about genetic differences being found with alpha chimps or something, I think – so maybe I just found the gene for Allism. That’s not the worst just so story I ever heard, I don’t think, and in hindsight, how did it take me this long to take that rather obvious little step?
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I blame the delays on the world swallowing obfuscation of Allistic thought. And also, I got some seriously short spikes on my ball.
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Seriously, does it ever explain this aspect of their natures, that they always think they can force one another into everything, as though they are all born bosses, but all their positive hopes always go to social breakdown and war because it is in none of their natures to be subjugated, they all expect the freedom of alphas, and the authority of alphas, but their target audience are alphas too.
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There is still the epigenetic toggle switch, alpha-ism is at least partially transmitted by spanking. I could tell the serving, top alphas of the world, if you want a docile population, abuse is not how you get that. You have to leave the herd alone. You abuse an alpha, you get a fight.
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I don’t like where this is going either, kids, eish, but you have to be able to think about these sorts of things.
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Yeah, I must have thought this before and dismissed it as too easy, I suppose it was before the rest of the scenario fell into place for me, but this alpha thing fits too well, my problem solving daemon can’t ignore it anymore.
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So the majority has some alpha versions of genes, and perhaps everyone isn’t full on, but without the old majority of passive sorts around there aren’t the other versions of those genes also propagating, so with every generation of drift, mostly only the alpha versions grow and spread. Maybe everyone isn’t full on alpha but full on everything else is disappearing. Not all by accident, the alphas find the betas etc., to be a liability in their wars and having peaceful people around is less of an option to an aggressive alpha sort than living in constant war. Apparently.
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As always, my point is constant war is NOT an option, we are too good at it, the planet is dying collaterally.
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But the majority carries the genes and the tendencies – and then they are spanked, they are raised in an atmosphere of threat and violence. Spanking is one, abusive, with the psychological effects, and two – literal fight training, beginning about the time they learn to walk.
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You hit an alpha, they learn what their genes are made to learn, to hit.
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I’m not over excited, I realize this is still only a just so story, that’s all we homespun sorts get to declare – but it’s a good one and dare I say, anything is better for my mind than the existing just so stories of the majority. It’s testable too, but they aren’t looking for the genes for themselves and if they find them by accident they’ll probably sterilize everyone without them.
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The situation is hard to understand and problematic as Hell; it’s at once deliberate as can be and also utterly unconscious.
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You realize this is the opposite of the (deleted derogatory adjective) self-domestication theory as well?- it just struck me that that idea, while reasonable and all that, is part of them saying we’re improving morally, like we’re “getting better,” because we’re ordering ourselves to.
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Back to genes for a quick update, if the majority carries something like alpha genes, that would explain no-one identifying them, they would dismiss what everyone has, the alphas are assumed to be a minority. That’s still the geneticist’s main tool, right, finding what stands out against the background, find what is not common, they’re not mostly picking a common one and figuring out what it does to everyone, right?
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Not sure about that, but I think it’s still impossible to do that? I’ve sent a question to Sapolsky’s podcast, asking him questions about alphas, like do they ever have it all their way, and everyone is a child of the alpha, and I wanted to wait for an answer to complete this chapter, but I don’t think there’s an answer coming, he hasn’t answered any of my questions yet, I mean, it makes sense, mine will almost by definition not be the popular questions.
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Again, download the book before I pass and stop paying for the domain, or before your government censors it.
it’s the smiling face from the cover of King Crimson’s In the Court of the Crimson King
Appendix D
Allistics DGAF
I don’t know how to tell you that you should care.
That’s a thing that all the nice folks say to the trolls on social media, and it challenges me, it has been very hard to answer, but despite my failure to date, I cannot accept that it’s impossible. I’m not saying that if a thing is possible that means I’m the guy who can do it, but it means somebody ought to try, and I’m afraid I am all I got. If I crash and burn, then you’re not seeing this.
First, let’s establish the problem: Allistic people do not give a fuck, they can’t, they’re not allowed, giving a fuck isn’t, “strong,” and they’re all depending on each other to be strong. If they were born with any fucks to give, they quickly fall into debt, their fucks, past, present, and future become property of the powerful, stated in more biological terms, of the group. They are all robbed of their fucks, robbed of their caring – and also of an unobstructed sense of reality, of how things work.
It’s a terrible double whammy, if they could see clearly, they’d know to care, if they cared, they would try to see better.
Allistics do not give a fuck about anything. I mean, not about anything real, like the actual future or the environment. They can get awfully passionate about bullshit like the afterlife, their mythological future, and their nations and parties, the political environment, but the real things, please be serious, they don’t give a fuck about that. They don’t have time for anything but human concerns, social matters and authority.
It’s their own fault, not caring or seeing straight, I mean, if they knew it. We’re talking about humans, caring about nothing but the orders and concerns of other humans – is there some other species with a role in this story, someone else to blame?
Ah, now, that would be rhetorical, and proper science requires answering the obvious ones at least once.
A lack of fucks is lethal
When an animal turns fearless, sometimes there is another species to blame, isn’t there?
I don’t remember the name of the creature, or the part of the world, but it’s out there, there’s a parasite that lives its cycle in birds and snails, and what the parasite does to the snail is hijacks its brain to send it straight into the mouths of the birds, drives the snail out of the litter on the ground and to the treetops where the birds feast on them, ingesting the parasite for its next stage – now I’m not certain everyone will grant the snail much of an inner life, but its behaviour looks like it lost its life-critical fear of open spaces and heights.
Then there’s toxoplasmosis, which lives its stages in cats and rats, the rats apparently lose their fear of open spaces also, and even specifically of the urine smell of a major one of their predators, cats, so the parasite kills the rats’ fear responses, making it easy for the cats to eat them and the parasite, it’s the circle of life! People can also catch toxoplasmosis and there is a literature about people becoming fearless from it, walking into machine gun fire and whatnot, maybe daredevils.
So my thought is, we look like such a host, and is it really us, really our interests being looked after when we march fearlessly into our wars, directly like that, like the snail, as though some parasite wants our corpses?
But also, who seems to want us to be fearless more than we do?
It rather looks like we are at once the doomed host, driven toward the business end of the gatling gun, but also the parasite, driving one another to it, making ourselves fearless!
I wrote a book length book report and laid it out as a metaphor, Invasion of the Body Snatchers, kind of thing, but I was thinking about aggression, not fearlessness, and I hadn’t thought of caring as fear, if you care, you fear for the object, care is fear – and then it looks just like those famous parasites, a shut down fear response more than a “lack of caring,” which might not be a biology concept as much as a social one.
Thinking of it this way, like toxoplasmosis, I’m starting to wonder if it isn’t somehow more than metaphor.
I wouldn’t know how, it’s genetics. I carry the metaphor on in the book like there is some sort of genetic entity, that the grouping of genes that makes the Allistic subtype somehow has its own agenda, its own path. I’m not trying to make a case for a “genetic parasite,” that’s quite a leap and I don’t know enough to even play there.
I’m just saying, humankind at this moment does look like a snail racing up a tree or a rat sniffing around the sandbox in broad daylight, screaming about strength and freedom and burning the last of the crops for their wars before the water runs out. The worm tells the snail, No fear! Onwards and upwards!, and the microbe tells the rat, No fear! The world is yours!, and something is telling the majority human type, No fear! – and then what? Well, it’s the actuarial sense that’s missing, so I guess it’s, No fear! You aren’t causing the problems? Violence is good, actually?
I’m just saying that like parasites or saprophytes, something about Allism interferes with fear, making the species unable to see the dangers of what it does, hardening people against fear of . . . not heights, where birds find you, not the barn floor where the cat finds you, but . . . but I’m sorry, apparently against fear of the future?
I mean, it predisposes people away from worrying about the real future, perhaps replacing it with something to do with religion, a mythological future? Sometimes it seems like it messes with causality in general, I mean, I’ll send you back to the top, they DGAF about anything, they don’t seem to fear anything. They watch their own kind being slaughtered on television for, “fun.”
But it’s usually specific, climb a tree, leave your burrow. Any biologist have an idea exactly what . . . control it might interfere with?
I’m sorry, we’ll see this again. Let’s leave it there, as metaphor, it just really, really looks like that. As for the question, is there another thing to blame, it’s either this bit of fantasy, my genetic group parasite, or it’s a simple no, this is simply people doing it to themselves. Not really very different, I suppose.
Right? Where were we?
Design intent
The definition of apathy, I don’t know and I don’t care, is a lock with no apparent key, in this case, an evolutionary blind alley.
It’s nobody’s, “fault,” if you ask them, I mean, it’s not a “fault,” not a mistake, not by their reckoning, no-one is apologizing for it and no-one is coming to fix it, it’s . . . design intent. When you don’t care about anything, no-one can frighten you, people who do not give a fuck are very effective on the battlefield. It’s a warrior mentality, a soldier is not supposed to care about anything but orders, and they mostly come from long lines of people who worked hard to create this dearth of fucks, to make sure they would be strong and wouldn’t care about anything.
This is the only place they are allowed to put their fucks, no room for luxuries, it takes all your caring to fight the war, to stay alive, because wars are what keep us all alive, this is what the warrior caste knows, and so “caring,” becomes fighting, and peace becomes, “violence,” I mean, that soundbite has already been all over the news here on Turtle Island as the world melts down. I’m not going to engage in their fallacy of authority, but I’m not the only one to formulate such things, love is hate, war is peace, like that, am I? I know I read that sort of thing in a book once.
It was, “on purpose,” as much as anything is, and as far as I can tell, they all think it’s working, they’re all “strong,” which remains the goal, and I suppose not caring about anything is also why they don’t learn anything, why “science,” i.e. how things work, seems optional to them. They have no fucks to give, so it doesn’t matter whether things are real or not?
I don’t know how to tell you that that you should want to know what’s going on. But I’ll keep trying.
Nothing is real to normal people.
It’s all some interactive storybook, they think they have free will to believe what they like about how the world was made, how people were made, and how the world works, and the cynicism in that, the lack of fucks given about that! I think I’ll believe the world is a personality test for the next life, or no, I think I’ll believe we’re trapped souls from another planet, having previously failed testing, or no again, I think I’ll believe we look different, but we are still exactly chimpanzees on the inside!
Plus, having chosen the fiction they like best, they think they can make it true by force. If you think it’s is up to you, what the world is, or if you think it doesn’t matter, I don’t know how to tell you a lot of things.
They write laws telling everyone what sort of people must exist (chimpanzees) and which sort are not allowed to be born (bonobos), they seem to believe how the world works is up to them, and if unauthorized things continue to happen, they’ll just pass another law, tell them not to. Again, not any one of their own faults, there’s no-one alive who started it – but having said that, no-one else can fix it for them. It’s not their fault, but it’s their opportunity, theirs alone, I fear, and so it’s their goddam responsibility.
If they can find their way to it.
And maybe they can, in theory they could – but they fucking won’t, for the reasons above, they don’t know to care, or care to know.
Unfortunately, they’ve locked it up and thrown away the key: when their best self is to not care about anything and they don’t need to learn anything, how can they be reached? They’ve tossed away their hearing aid and they’re not answering our calls – and always today, and in every way, a record storm is coming and they don’t care to hear about that either. The scientists, and the reality based people with their eyes on worldly things, we are trying to save them, if they only cared to hear.
Creating their own problems
It’s not an easy matter showing the responsibility factor, they don’t really know all this is going on, but it is their own behaviour making it happen and their own behaviour that makes them unable to perceive it – again, they’ve locked the note with the combination in the safe. They don’t feel it’s their fault that they require the hearing aid, and again, maybe that much is sort of true, but who else can solve their hearing for them, it’s their opportunity to find it and put in, again, their responsibility and no-one else’s, if only they knew it.
Wait. You don’t necessarily know what I mean, how they’re causing it, do you. No-one does, it’s been left out of the conversation since “normal” people arrived. I suppose most people haven’t been listening to me, I’ve said it a million times, I just haven’t said it to anybody. Fair enough, my bad, I ain’t exactly ruling the airwaves.
It’s spanking
It’s the cult of punishment, abuse hurts learning outcomes and when you have, “abuse is good for you,” forced into your brain early, nothing real is ever going to fit right, and you are not allowed to redress the fault, on pain of punishment. Allistics DGAF about anything because after their abusive epigenesis (if you need a second to process that word, take it, I’m using it to mean when the environment gets its say in your development and you make environment appropriate choices from your genetic options as you grow up), after surviving the human environment of punitive abuse, they think bad is good and good is bad, so “good,” people don’t GAF.
They call this being, “strong,” when abuse isn’t “bad,” or, “wrong,” anymore in their minds, when it’s necessary for life instead.
Reality in general doesn’t fit after that, under that regime, so life becomes a purely social matter, reality can’t be squared with social matters, so they simply live on the social side of life, where things don’t have to be reconciled. Nothing matters but what people say and do, nothing is real, like the actual climate doesn’t get a voice, only what humans say about the climate is real.
So, that’s a problem, and if child abuse were against the law or something, perhaps they might think it matters but it’s not illegal because they don’t think it matters . . . someone invoked the film, The Life of David Gale online today, and that works too, they have handcuffed themselves and swallowed the key with that first and last lesson they get about life, that abuse is good for you. The examples keep coming, I’m sorry if I’m mixing them.
These humans take charge of one another’s environments this way, providing the constant conformist pressure, the threat of punishment, but they cannot perceive the adaptations that result from these controlled spaces, they have the reigns and are pulling hard, but are apparently unaware that the horses are indeed turning – the Allistic knows they can’t be, you see.
They have an opposing idea, Human Nature, which apparently is not subject to evolution or adaptation. Allistic people seem certain of two mutually exclusive things, that they must apply this punitive and selective pressure, but that Human Nature never changes.
I don’t know what you can say about that, when people believe mutually exclusive things, but the point is they’re rarely both true, and in this case, it’s evolution that’s real, and contrary to popular belief, Human Nature changes with every generation. A few murdered corpses in the deep past and the twentieth century’s hundreds of millions of them do not indicate the same Nature, murder is not a binary, one is not the same as a million. People changed.
Human Nature
This last bit, I’m sorry all you clever, Allistic atheists, is identical to how theists think about people. Your difference regarding the man in the sky is pretty meaningless if you believe in some Human Nature where people must be controlled, yet do not change and adapt, if you and the theists are in agreement about real things, real, living human beings – and of course it doesn’t make the theists right, it means you’re all wrong, I mean all Allistic.
Allistic people DGAF, because as Jane Goodall liked to say, they don’t believe what they do matters. Back to me, they don’t realize that what they do changes what people are going to be, that’s why it matters – and Jane is right, the majority sort do not seem to think it about themselves, you can’t change people, they say. Totally normal thing to say, but it means evolution isn’t real, adaptation isn’t real, genetics aren’t real – you have to leave the entire world out of the conversation to say that – but the majority type say it to each other all day long, repetition and consensus, these cognitive superpowers leave the real world far behind in the Allistic mind. “Good,” people know you can’t change people.
Right?
After they are forced to absorb how their child abuse is good for them, all real knowledge regarding ourselves, regarding people is unavailable to the Allistic mind, and they are left with the barren moonscape of Human Nature instead, where first we’re all horrible, get used to it, and second, it does not change, so stop complaining, you’re immutable, you’re fine. You’re horrible and you’re fine.
Human Nature, the meme, lacks causality, and as normal a thing as it is to invoke, it’s quite obviously not literally a real thing. Of course we all have some “Nature,” that’s a made up thing we can always apply – but people change, our natures change. The forever, “Human Nature,” the meme, the idea, the brain path, represents a disability, an inability to perceive change.
This is impossible.
I’m trying to shock people, trying to slap them in the face, make them perhaps get a glimpse of what the trouble is and just how bad things really are, trying not to fawn and let everyone off the hook as I do it – but of course at least some will feel I’m simply slinging insults and picking a fight – I would assure them, my tiny percentage of the population is not trying to provoke the vast majority into a fight, please. This train of thought began more than fifty years ago, and for most of that time, I thought I was one of them, I thought, as they teach, that we were All the Same, and the idea has always been to solve this puzzle and so save us all – it has never been and still isn’t about trying to hurt anyone or get rid of anyone – that’s the Allistic solution, and to me, it’s no solution but rather the entire problem and the solution means the opposite, it would be love and life.
I don’t say that from a moral stance, I don’t think it’s unimpeachable, I think it needs an explanation and I will explain, if in negative exposure; that’s the rest of this thing.
If they could stop the spanking, they could break the bind, they could know and care, if they stopped hurting they could care and if they cared they could know. But they don’t so they don’t so they don’t. It’s not a small matter, it’s everything, different from the very bottom up from my non-Allistic mind.
Progress meme/what is “natural,” is where you’re headed?
If your mind is naturally biased towards a recent creation event (or if your mind isn’t but that’s what the whole world seems to think and alternatives never find you), then that’s like a journey, it has a beginning, and first steps, and perhaps you feel that there will then be a destination, an ending, but you’d also want to think you’re traveling from bad to good, from the jungle to some Heaven on Earth or other, perhaps a high tech Brave New World. You may talk about the past as though it were “nature,” and rough and brutal and life not guaranteed . . . and you’d be hoping to break your programming and improve upon that nasty old natural way of life.
This is the progress idea, we may have been animals, and nasty and amoral, but we are ascending some ladder towards the bright future where we won’t have to be like that, getting smarter and finding better ways to get along.
Right?
But what if that’s not it?
I mean, not “if,” is it. Creationism has been largely debunked, and evolution is what is real instead. I mean, it’s evolution, and so what you think is, “natural,” is what you’re in serious danger of becoming. If that’s “natural,” you’re in serious danger of allowing it, accepting it, and therefore selecting for it, and the supposed goal of the progress meme, new ways, become “unnatural,” ways and will have an uphill battle – and all that would be the case if we were All the Same and if our brains lacked any biases – of course that is not the situation.
The progress meme is part of the false model, the creationist one, in that it postulates some initial state of things.
I’m sorry, but in real, evolving life, where we are all self creations, the progress meme is poison. The progress meme is a low self image rather than aspirational, and someone telling you used to be horrible but you’re getting better after your punishments is like narcissistic gaslighting. Telling yourself that is self-gaslighting.
So if peace and reason are the destination and we all agree we are not there yet, but “Nature, rough in tooth and claw,” is what is “natural,” and our, “genetic legacy,” then through selection, by accepting it – selection works, whether it’s “natural,” or not – we are creating ourselves in the image of beasts, that’s where our species is headed. That term, “genetic legacy,” gives the whole game away; it’s the opposite of evolutionary innovation.
This is exactly what the powers that be are doing, all over the white, western world right now, defending what they think is, “natural,” a supremacy of, “strength,” meaning a violent, chaotic world – and fighting progress as, “unnatural.” Bad is good and good is bad in the cult of punishment, did I say that already, they think they are defending against some unravelling from some vague, previous created state, some initial condition, but a winnowing isn’t what happens in a real, living and evolving world.
It’s not some “purification,” like they think, but an evolutionary selection event towards a world, “rough in tooth and claw,” towards what they think is the awful past. In a created world, perhaps a purge makes things relatively better, if you purge the right thing – but in an evolving world, it isn’t about the dead, it’s about the living, and the living who perform purges are selecting themselves for violence and hatred, for rough old nature’s main things – to be exactly the supposed past, to be more so like the awful “past,” every generation.
So with every purge, the population becomes more warlike, the average majority type person feels angrier, less satisfied, more aggressive – besides being a huge tragedy, every genocide makes the conqueror feel worse, more frustrated, more like lashing out – it’s a complete waste of effort and doesn’t solve the dominant sort’s perceived problems, in fact it makes them feel worse, less happy and more angry, every time.
Will they have to kill the whole world before they realize they carry their own problems with them, that it’s their own evolution driving them mad, will they need that whole process of elimination? Thinking “creation,” in an evolutionary world is poison, everything you do will make everything worse – and if you think, “creation,” you won’t even notice when it does. And here we are.
Do I have to say it, this is the opposite of the progress we are all hoping for. Third time: the progress idea is toxic gaslighting.
This is my frustration, that this framing of thinking we’re getting better indicates a poor self image and then forgives us for it, and seems to insure that we never stop getting worse. Again, establishes you were worthless before but that they will make something useful of you, like the army, or a cult, or the criminal life, the formula for gaslighting abuse. The majority type, maybe seven billion of them, agree to see life this way.
I am sorry. That is the opposite of the whole world’s hope, isn’t it, but as they say, I suppose as we say, rather – hope is not a plan.
Not that there’s a plan. It’s still in the dreaming stages, I’m afraid: if they stopped being hurt, they could care, if they cared, they could learn and know, if they could learn and know, they could stop hurting themselves, rinse and repeat. I can sort of describe the Gordian knot, but honestly, I have yet to find a way in. I’ve wasted my life thinking that they could know if only someone told them, I’ve learned the hard way and then solidified it with what I think is science, about neurotype that this is not the case, and now this is the knot I see and I know that sometimes there is no use for what your studies find when you find them, but that perhaps later someone else can do something with them.
Your endings have to be pathetic when you’re trying to be honest.
The Spanking Gene 